"When will my reflection show.. who I am inside.."... This has always been one of my favourite songs....made famous by the movie, Mulan. and I guess, a person truely likes a song because of its relational distance to it.
Like a wise preacher once said.. If you, in your physical form, take a look at a mirror, whether in purpose or not, and you happen to see a mark on your face, a leaf on your hair... a huge pimple on your nose, etc, wouldnt you try to do something about it without a 2nd thought? Wouldnt you rummage in your bag for a tissue to wipe of the offending mark on your face, sweep the leaf off your hair? If the pimple was persistant, wouldnt you keep trying to, just as consistantly get rid of it? Then even more we should always check our spiritual being.. and always check who we are in the inside....
what if I looked in the mirror one day and find out that I fail to recognise the reflection staring back at me... ... ...
That was what sat me down one day..thinking.. Ive come so far.... where was the girl who used to soak her pillows with tears at night. Who used tears as her language every so often. Who had her heart broken, yet set it where she knew it would be broken once again...?
The girl now knows how to smile from her heart, where it counts. And to teach your heart to smile, the tears just dont come so often. Days will come when everything is miserable.. but she chooses to smile.. if it would make the difference..she will always choose to smile =)
'A Royal Priesthood... a chosen people..' Thats who she found herself truely to be. To find her satisfaction in the one who loved her and found her before the creations of the earth... who died for her even knowing beforehand that she would fail Him. She found her true comfort in who He was.. running to Him for comfort and strength time and again, when she fails to find herself.. when she feels the common weariness and lonliness... .. what does it mean to be found by Him?
Where the future leads will always be a mystery... who does she see in the mirror now? "Praying that somehow... her refelction will show who she truely is inside...
The road might be long... it might be hard.. but it will never truely be alone. In the busy-ness of my life.... in what I chose to put my hand to do.. in all my uncertainty... I know I will stumble.. but above that I know Youd always be there. But I guess thats enough for now.. for u truely know me for who I am... to who I will be. What I have done.. and above that, what I can do for you.. "Help me be real Lord, in a world that is superficial... to live Lord, in your expectations rather than in the people around me.. to do my best Lord for You in everything I put my hand to do.. but above all, to be able to be that little light.. so small, yet significant to the lives You would allow me to touch..to the smiles You would subsequently put on their faces"
... thats who..and what I want to see of the reflection... ...who looks back at me.. .. ...
