*...Life signals...*
~the cold is giving me a brain freeze.. the heater is dehydrating me from the surface area of my body.. =_=~We have all grown up in the company of people. Well, maybe for Singapore, we dont have that much of a choice anyway, cos its SO small. To put it in a chemistry context, we're just like tiny water molecules ..vibrating vigourously... moving so fast.... constantly knocking into other equally 'stressed out and crazy' molecules. Conversations take place everyday...and sometimes we find it such a bother... "oh why must I keep thinking of things to say to keep the conversations moving"... It might be for a job.. it might be a social thing. But often, in the overdose of 'company' we feel absolutely tired out. ... sometimes we might even ask the question.." Why do I have to talk to people anyway?"...people are complex, they're not like me.. they take too much effort to get to know.. im an introvert..I pretty much like to keep to myself. I think... subconsciously, I have been pondering upon these things. And recently, as i was daydreaming on the bus *to the city..i think* I experienced a half DING moment. [with reference to Benji's blog] Labelled an extrovert, Im almost expected to be easy with any kind of person. Thats true to a certain extent, I can start conversations.. BUT not necessarily with any kind of person..on the conturary... Im more a passive person...I prefer to listen. SO while..I MAY BE able to thicken my skin..plaster a smile and strike up an animated convo with a random person, it takes that bit of me.and tires me out..cos.... deep inside, Im actually scared. Scared of what the world might throw at me.. scared...perhaps of...rejection. But if you stop and think... what is life without anybody around to talk to.. to fellowship with.. to share life with? All of us are so different in so many ways.. some of us are introverts..hermits in our own world. But deep inside, we've all been built with a very basic yet essential mechanism. The need for LOVE and FELLOWSHIP. We cannot survive without fellowship.. without interaction and love. Babies,provided with full nutrition, literally wither and die without affection(human touch) Think abt it. God made us to be in fellowship with Him. (Genesis 1-2). This inborn need is also reflected in our T cells. Our very important class of immune cells in the body. T cells are made in the thymus and undergo a selection process. The cells the dont have a basic slight interaction with another specific class of immune cells, the dendritic cells, bascially dont recieve a survival signal and dies off. True fellowship and socialising is something we cant run away from.. and it hit me thats its also something we cant do without! Im glad God made you... for me... for us! =D So Id treasure fellowship.. ... ... and thank God for ingraining something so beautiful into our system. =)
Haha... wacky fellowship =) Yewlim, JuneBayyyy and Benji. =)
What is your life signal today? Will you speak life into a passing 'molecule'.. giving the essential survival signal so that the molecule will go on and live its life to the fullest? Or would you shrug off contact ... living within the walls you built up over the years... freezing into an ice cube..... .. ..?
*The shadow proves the sunshine*
Recently, the song 'The shadow proves the sunshine* by Swichfoot has been repeating its play cycles in the ipod. And the words stuck... little snippets like..
.....sunshine, wont you help me sing... ...
......Please Lord, dont look the other way... ....
.......dry eyes in the pouring rain.. ....
......let the shadows prove the sunshine.... ....
Even when work threatens to drown me, when insecurities threaten to tear me up.. when hopeless and helplessness tend to draw its cloak around me..when I get so scared and the walls just seem to keep closing it.
I run to your feet again...falling to me knees. sometimes a little voice in me goes "maybe He wont hear you today.." Yet doggedly... I pursue after You.. knowing you're above human comprehension.. that Youd still hear me no matter the cost.. because You are... You. Like a child crying for his mother's embrace.. like a lamb bleating and in search of the comfort of his mom's company.. So i run to You, my Lord and Father.. and I pray that You'd let me hide under the shadow of your wings.. where the icy blast of winds cannot get at me.. where the fiery darts are deflected.
You know human nature in me is to run... to run away from that which I dont wish to face.. .. which really makes up to everything. . and most of the time.. you still let me run. Like an obstinate child with limited strength in his limbs.. I run, knowing I get nowhere.. knowing Id never outrun the storm just because I cant. But always.. You are there. amd You are my sunshine.. Let Your rays oh so shine on my I pray... that with your warmth, the shadow is nothing. And with the knowledge and experience of sunhine.. I will not fear the storm... ...
... .. ...and that... ... even as You are my sun...I can be sunshine to the people around me. even to the shadow behind me...
... shine on me... ...
* my little balls of fun *
I had my share of being STRESSED over assignments last week. Oh why oh why do u wait till the last min to do major assignments..you silly like girl. *frumps* But ya...all the additional lab work has got me busy... and sleepy and to say time flies really doesnt give it enough credit. It moves faster than that.. -_-'''
Im a whole lot less stressed this week... but Im doing work. Gotta be consistant.. * SIGH* the terrors of school work. But I did tell God that Id do whatever He puts in my hand to do. And for now, its assignments.. so.. GoOoOo Lyds.
I love making dessert. Today, we kinda hosted dinner over at our place.. so I had a chance to try out my 'little balls of fun'!!! hahaha.. I have no idea what their actual name is, but its ALMOST like an inside-out Onde Onde. And they're kinda fun to make.. =P The recipe is my mom's and I called home to get it!
So..this is it. Little glutinous rice balls with palm sugar dressing. =) If you have a sweet tooth, youd love it. hahaha. Yewlim was stealing spoonfuls of sugar right out of my pot! hahahaha -_-''' I shall try to shape it some other way next time..and break out of the mould of making balls... since wally commented.. " You really like making balls heh.."I cant help it if the things I make then to swing in the 'ball-like' direction!! hahaha... ok now... work.. and Longan farm tmr! YAY!!!
