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Sunday, September 26, 2004

me and my 'baby' ..early in the morning and in my pj's!..hehe

5 pm on a Sunday afternoon...yawnz...and i'm still stuck on my biochemistry report. yawnz.haha. So i decided to do something better than to keep yawning...i posted a pic lah! haha...

Took this quit awhile back..arly in the morning..so i look weird..ritee.?? but nvm.haha. Can share wif u all..hehe..k ..i shouldn't stay toOoo long here..and i know it..wanna go thru some maths first..thurs got test. sIghz. aniwae...i'll be back..same channel!...*muackz* byeez...

*there's nothing in life i can't tackle..wif God on my side..All ThiNgs aRe pOsSible!!!*

Scribbled at 4:57 PM

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Friday, September 24, 2004

LoniNesS iSn'T veRy bEcomIng...
lalalala....yep. its a fri afternoon 4.27 pm in the afternoon. Nina just flew rally early this afternoon..byee froggiez :-) I had class fm 12 to 1 today...then had project th ingy. But saddd...it didn't last very long.haha. and since i'm goin to watch a dance performance later with Auntie Rina, I din see it very productive to go all the way home again.heez. So i did some project stuff..and i'm stuck here...ALONE. din bring study notes le..wasted. n i dun like to go window shopping meself. it's boringz... so what am i to do..sobs.. aniwae, we listening to utada hikaru's cd while typing this. yepyep.

tired, but nowhere to sleep...
wanna study but no books..i shld go visit my dad at nyp.hahaz. tiongz....danno wad to do le.dun hav tat much time either wad. my frens go pak tor...so i'm alone..AGAIn...sighz... nono...must smile. heez. hu said being alone is bad.. :-) i wan sara n phish.... now i'll sob. ya. sob.
Got cravings for chocolate again...damn. i'm supposed to be on a diet. put on a whole lot of weight liaoz le. can't afford more..unless got sara to go dieting champaign wif me.haha. to fit into dresses again. hehe.

Oh ya, had piano exam for a second time again yest. still cannot shake off the nervous feeling...but ahh..well, i hope i'll do better. i dun hav high hopes for the pieces thou. sad..too nervous..and i had a prob singing too..oh dearie. hehe. but thank God he let me pass the first exam, so there's nothing to worry abt right???hehe. Love God ..lalalalala...

exams are here soon..i think..saddd. but we havent got the time table yet..dun wanna fail. but subjects soo cheem..just on wed, i had a biochem test. rach will know cos i kinda bugged her. haha. i tot i never listen in lesson that's y i missed the enzymes part..chey. i was wrong..lousy teacher din teach at all! he just taught us today..but a bit late rite..-_-lll already tested. sigH...see the bigg sigh?..haha. say sara dear, does that happen in aussie too?..haha.

Oink...piggy coming through...yay...i'm done wi grade 8 piano...that finally sank in..haha. happie day... wish i could learn harp thou...but ex rite..hmph. maybe should learn figure skating instead. praying for time thou...den wont be such a klutz on ice with sara n rach.hehe. i shouldn't crap so much.... love rox..must spread more lovin....hehe..

always on my mind:
Bear Bear...Mitsuka...Misune...
praying that you'll be safe always...*muackz*

Scribbled at 4:24 PM

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Tuesday, September 14, 2004

aww...it's been quite a long time since i blogged. Yea true..last week was hols, but sch kinda stuffed us up with hmk...i'm dying. it's unfair ya? But i tried to have fun..hehe. and i did. splurged 20 bucks on arcade last week. haha. But it was fun. erm...shooting ppl. Hmm..making digital people suffer to release stress..now that does make some point doesn't it.

But now sch had started again..nonetheless with a big bang. Talk abt tests on both mon n tues. thanks for the welcome ya...we got it.haha -_-lll... But i hope i'm surviving, what with the reports and all, i still not thru.heez. There's just no time for real good fun anymore..n real good sleep..snort. Plus life seems to be making fun of me these days...i danno y. I try hard. I wanna do well. But i still feel as if i'm floundering in deep waters. As if there are vulturers around just waiting for the chance i would die a little, then crying out in triumph, the would swoop down to take a bite outta me. Not that i'm losing weight either...lala.. Somebody( i wouldn mention name) told me that i was a spoilt brat today...now..dear misune n mitsuka...am i?...really..seriously..am i? cos if i really am..sigh. wad am i to say..it's not the path i wanna take. But i felt i tried hard. Sometimes its not possible to please all. Dear God, if this is something you're putting me through..it's hard. you said you'd be there for me...i stand on that..but there's gotta be more to life... ... ..

I hate getting tricked to pity parties...darn you satan... But it's hard to optain self confidence nowadays. and talk abt self-pride. with the would hitting you left right and centre. plus satan hitting you below the belt, what much of self pride do you have left?... I really hate bring angry with the world, dun wan to feel too much for it either. Now i envy Saizo...a lil piggy can be carefree. I just wanna soar with my frenz..think i'll take up shy-diving one day...seriously..rach...sara..?...join me kk???hehe.

For now...yea. i feel better..now to spread love n joy...*muackz*

Scribbled at 9:29 PM

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Tuesday, September 07, 2004

HiiIiIIi Ninaaaaaa...welcomy backk!!! haha biggie welcome too youu..hehe. welcome to hott weather n stuff haha. n lots of food, Singapore style! yea man. yawn..ahh. i'm still tired man. had a project day yesterday..not that anything fantastic was accomplished..hehe. i'm still really confused in poly life. yea. that's me. sad. hav cca from 6 to 8...thou as usual it ended late. But it was supreb.Had a fantastially great workout! hehe. now yao suan bei tong..but fun..hmm. ya. Nina flight came it really late last night...so could i say today morning?haha. But i must say i had fun..even thou i was suppose dto meet fiona...but the darling managed to misss the last train and so came much later leaving me freezing alone.hehe. but it's fine la i guess.. i had my much missed starbucks mocha frapuccino.hee. Saara darlin..still watin 4 uuuuu to come back.yepp.

ya..i also know that i haven really been getting round to updating this thingy. but what to doo...hav so much things on to do..really now. i'm beginning to think 24 hrs a day ain't sufficient...ne gals? haha. I always wanna update...but somehow too tired to on the com. yawnz. and there's so much to say too..darn. nvm la..i guess..i'll update whoeva hu gives some time to ring me on the phone.hehe. But i've got loads of reports to gao tim...reports i havent an idea how to even start. arghz. *sob*sob*wail* It's a lonely n cold life out there...*hic*

Abt time i started studying for exams...hmm..stressed out. So many things i dun understand....up to the point of not understanding wad i dun understand. hehe. oRo... ... hols dun seem to last long enuff either..haha.kk..gotta run...i'm trying to figure how to write reports. heez. yea. go figure..kk...gotta run..be back fast fast..haha. btw..anybody wan cute lil hamsters?...my male hamster's a sex manic and the female's extremely fertile.haha. kk
love u ppl!...God bless!...buki buki...

Scribbled at 3:21 PM