Lydia's musings.. =)

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Friday, March 28, 2008

~BloOpy slEePy dReAry day..~

...I need to blog emo-ness awayyy... rain rain go away.. its amazing how some fresh air and sun makes you feel a whole lot more alive. haha.

Its friday. Thats almost the end of my mid-sem break. and thats also bringing in the bluesss.. plus i havent done much studying. haha. But the extra time i got to do abit of fellowship-ing this week, I m soOo blessed. =)

Pictures maketh a whole day brighter!! haha. I thought Id upload some random ones. haha. some of which are so random you'll never see them in facebook anyways. haha.

My Housemates =) For those who wonder who Im staying with. haha.
[June, myself, Shun Wei and Yewlim]

This picure brings back memories of our mission against the bigg spider in my tiny bathroom! hahaha. Im standing from the door of my bedroom adjoined to the toilet, taking this picture...so you can imagine how narrow my toilet is. teehee.

My obsession with cupcakes! haha. They're yummy and cute no? [Dont even try telling me otherwise =_= gyahah.]

The majority at my cell during my housewarming!! Thats Veron in a dark blue shirt in the middle! She was the birthday girl that day!! hApPiE bIrThdAy to yOuUuus.... *grin*
[ Wally/Veron/me/Weiling/Yewlim/Sheryl/David/Clarence/Estee]

My dear housemate/granny Shunwei!!haha. She's a darling..and she KEEPS feeding me! haha. =) Thou she doesnt quite eat, herself..>.< blessing =")

Daniel left us in the wee hours this morning!!! Opa!! This was his good-bye dinner on monday night. Korean BBQ! Poor Elli, you'll be alone for awhile, but Im sure you'll be just fine!!! gooOoOo Elli!!!!!
~ *Daniel and Elli (Deli) are the cell leaders of June and Shunzy's cell.. they're wonderfully awesome Koreans.. who cook awesomeeee ricecakes! (^_^)But above it all, they are tremendous blessings in the lifes of so many! We'll miss you Opa! But sydney isnt that far..we'll meet in the middle! =) *~

This is the bedroom of Hilton hotel. Its got a supremely bouncy bed Im in love with. We got a chance to check it out when Yewlim's airsteward friend came to town this week. teehee. Im addicted to bouncy-ness! *bouncy...bouncy*

My Ls and my instructor! haha. I thank God for Wally/Bally/Pork. He makes me give my all at driving with his supreb patience, honesty and strictness. haha. What will I do with my driving without him. haa. * Im only praising him so blatently cos he'll prob never see this anyway. Its not for his eyes. wahahahha.*

Chocolate Mocha. *Lyddie can make coffee!* chocolate makes me happy, so you bet you'll get an extra dose if its me making it. God's love is just like the chocolate heart.. only He knows what I need and crave ... only he satisfies...and I can never get enough of it.
~~Fill me to overflowing, Lord, I wanna shre your chocolate love! =)~~

So thats me for now. perhaps my day's not so dreary after all! And its ending. There's hope yet for tomorrow..and tomorrow..and tomorrow!! I look forward to that.... and if you're feelign dreary today too, join lyddie! =)

*I can love because He first loved me..*

Scribbled at 5:27 PM

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Wednesday, March 26, 2008

a star...
..........a lone swing..
................................. a teddy bear

What do you see in these pictures? I was doing a 'psycho-analytical test' with Jade the other day, and I picked these 3 to represent my life. I wonder why I did. Perhaps there were too many cards... i couldnt have thought of them all, but most certainly these 3 do relate very well with me. When i looked at them.. i thought, hey, thats me.

the star...
represents simplicty. It takes the simple to brighten up by life.

..........the lone swing..
represents the lonliness i hide deep within myself. Yet, I love swings, they're good places to hangout with..yourself. =) and sometimes, you think.. 'If I swing high enough.. perhaps I can swing all my troubles away in the breeze..perhaps I can find myself..' This is the emo side of me =_=

................................... the teddy bear...
represents the part of me that will probably never grow up. The child-like heart that I will always treasure, the child-like faith that I always long for.

so..thats me in 3 pictures. I wonder what you see when u look at them... ...

Scribbled at 9:16 AM

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Monday, March 24, 2008

~Happie Easter!!!~

What does Easter mean to you.. more than the long holiday weekend, easter bunnies, chocolate eggs and that shops are closed all over Brissy? o.O

For me, Easter is a season of love. The untimate expression of love through sacrifice on good friday and triumph on sunday. I wouldnt know what I would be if Easter hadnt taken place.

... the Cross.. ...

I truely wouldnt know nor come close to imagining what You went through for me that day. Why you would chose to die for me knowing that I would hurt you time and again, I can never comprehand. Yet, because you chose me, Lord, Im so overwhelmed..words fail to express my gratitude...

..so this is my song, my story..my dance. If you would lead me Lord, I will follow.

...in swirls of feminity, encased with strength. Guard, my heart Lord, lead my thoughts.

But of course....

Thank God for chocolate eggs!!! teehee. I think I have an obsession with chocolates..and thats emphasing the size of my tummy.. SOB. teehee

ja neh~

Scribbled at 10:21 AM

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Thursday, March 13, 2008

~The Cell retreat~

...over the weekend, @ the Viscount, Goldcoast.
A throughly refreshing time when I got to fall in love with Surfers' Paradises beach and enjoy God's presence..and yea. finally have a HOLIDAY =P
My only regret is that I never once woke up early enough to catch the sunrise. And we stayed on the beach itself. bummer... .. . nevermind, Id get my chance again someday =)

Go expecting and God just gives more than you ask for....

Is one the things I experienced in this retreat. SO much so that I still got withdrawal symptoms from it. gah. But i love you guys... each one of you is so special and unique I often marvel at the limitless measure of God's creativity.

So yea.. as 'official' camera person of the retreat *just because I was the only one with a camera there -_-* I have lots and lots and lots of photos from it. haha. 152 to be exact. they're all on facebook. Go check them out. If you dont have facebook...sign up for it!!! hahaha... =P
Anyhow, this is what we did at the retreat.. .. ..( in summary)

we...

ATE

Studied the word...

John 15: We are the Branches~~

... and we bear FRUIT! teehee

Played

Yeah.. a whole lot of real fun.

Im glad I have you guys in my life... I thank God for you... If we could play like this forever.. I know we could.. Lets go to heaven together =P

...Lord.. I now know why you died for us..If I love them, how much more do you love us...

Scribbled at 9:16 PM

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Wednesday, March 05, 2008

*~ the Girl~*

..and Yes im back.

'Back' in essence, for me, has 3 meanings.
1) I WAS back in Singapore
2) Im back in Brissy now..>.<lack of time into the equation, I shall not elaborate more*

I thought that Id talk about my new skin..I dont practice the habit of putting jsut any 'pretty' skin. But skins are usually beyond skin deep.. they are a picture of part of who I am =P

"Dance"... my Passion...my Dream... my Desire... my Calling?
there are few things I feel like Im called to do. Maybe dance is one of them..

ever ungraceful on 'normal' walking ground (as many of my friends will be able to testify to), I often come face to face with myself in dance. From simple twirls and swirls to more technical grand jetes, I find in myself a strong desire to dance the dance of love.. the dance of God's love. To dance like David danced.. without restrains.. to dance like no one is looking.
..to dance away the bonds of this earth
...to dance into imaginary worlds
..to dance IN the presence of God.

Living in the 'revelation' I received during the performance of the last musical in December, where I was to dance a newly learnt dance in front of the orchard crowd. The pressure to perform, to draw people to the knowledge of Christ. At that time.. I felt such a helpless-ness in myself. A huge 'WHAT IF' I fall so short of the presatation of who God is.. what if I made a fool of myself representing God. In the midst of it all, and just before I stepped out onto the stage to dance, I said a short prayer I will always remember. It was ..

"God, dance through me. Let them see You through my dance. Take my steps and make them yours. Let it be all about You and none about me."

That, till today, is still my prayer...
"Lord, continue to dance through me... lead me through the dance of Life... till the day I am able to dance before you throne in all its Glory.."

...like David danced... like Mariam danced... I too wanna dance.. as long as I can.. with all I am.

Scribbled at 7:46 PM