*~ In dedication to love~*
What does it mean to love unconditionally from a human perspective? I find myself searching out the answer within me time and time again. And this is in respect to loving the one you'd spend the rest of your life with. How do you break the barrier to the mindset that marriange might be a prison you confine oneself in for the rest of your life. With all the marriange and talk of marriage going around me nowadays, I find myself confronting me in the question of marriage. And it always boils down to ...how ready am I for it?... what can I do for him? Can we love each other unconditionally despite our individuality and through our differences?
The talk I heard on the radio today about troubled marriages echoed:' It's all about the heart'. And it said this about people looking to get divorced: ' the person you're married to is exactly what you've always wanted to marry'. And I think they researched and stated that the next person a divorcee marries is always one with the same personality but a different outer look. So in other words, you just changed the 'shell' of it.
To me, a marriage would be the ultimate expression of forever love. As much as Hollywood paints it as a 'temporarily thing', it is in fact, one of the most important decision a person can ever make in his or her life. Most people dont realise that marriage takes away the 'you' and 'me' and changes it into 'us'. And thats what its meant to be. God made Eve for an important purpose. If Adam could live happily and perfectly without a companion, there wouldnt be a need for Eve. And Eve was in God's perfect plan.
In relation to me now.. I have been pretty much a grumpy little thing recently.. for some reason falling into the lack of self-worth more often than not. Everything seemed beautiful, except for me. Who would want a pimpled, long tangle haired, fat Lyddie >.< *even the squids wont take my jig. -_-'''* Sometimes the future looked quite bleak from my angle.
But I know that through my mood swings * more often than not in this chilly weather*.. I have firstly, Jesus, my rock on which I stand and secondly, my dearest Yewlim whose love I know stands true, who somehow finds it in him to love me, just as I am. That doesnt mean we dont fight, it just means we know we love it other even though we DO fight and get so mad at each other sometimes. =D Like nobody's perfect..and Im learning how to love, everyday.
I love you, darling. And in our future I put my hopes and dreams and trust that somehow, God will provide and God will undertake. =D
