Lydia's musings.. =)

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Monday, March 30, 2009

*~That warm fluffy feeling~*

I got a picture of the fluffies I have been waiting to see like.. forever... on thurday last week!! Haha.. ducklings! Well, apparently they arent general 'yellow' fluffy ones of story books..and farm stays. But these little grey/silver ones are not lacking in the 'aww' factor either! Here are my little friends. =D

The parents with their children. I have no idea why blogger instists on having the picture this way round. I cant change it. =_=...

The little babies themselves! =D ( they're hard to take pictures off because the parents are highly protective) ^^

Yea. its these little surprises that make my day everyday and colours my life. My little fluffy friends. =)

Scribbled at 12:39 PM

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Tuesday, March 24, 2009

~* It WORKED!!!!*~

For the first time...Im finally seeing bands in my chromatography result! Its amazing!! Its a miracle!!! Now im feeling all happy and hopeful again. Its a warm and fuzzy feeling..as Bec would say. =D Im leaving the image unexplained and unlabelled to protect the privacy of my thesis! =D =D =D

Thank you God.. You are indeed faithful. =D Amen.

Scribbled at 11:33 AM

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Monday, March 23, 2009

*~ The sobering truth*~

God is holy..and He is faithful.

And beyond reason..beyond the times and beyond logic, our God is unchangable. Thats a fact. And He reminded me of that this afternoon. Just three words: Faithful;God;Holy. And it spoke volumes. I googled it and found this:

[1 Thess 5:24] - He who calls you is faithful;He will surely do it.

...and the pass few days and today...I was a ball of jumping nervous stressed energy, encouraging pre-matured wrinkles and stress lines. I dont quite like the way my honours project is turning out..I dont quite like the way procrastination doesnt go too well with the flying time and I dont quite like the way that Im stuck with my project..and it doesnt seem as if somebody can truly help me. ..and yea..and I dont quite like the way stress mingles with PMS. -_-'''. Neither does Yewlim, I reckon. haha.

But.. He IS faithful. He indeed is. And no matter what happens, I will continue to live to do His will. And even when I think Im all alone and cornered, I know I never truely am. God is awesome. =)

Scribbled at 11:24 AM

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Thursday, March 12, 2009

~* It WILL NOT rain*~

The rainy season is here and many a time..it covers Brisbane with its soft snow like patterings and unprediatable heavy showers. As much as I love the 'romance' in rain; the heavy clouds, light rhythmatic patterings and cool weather which keep pulling me back to a snuggle in bed, this extended weather makes me gloomy. Im not home as much as I would want to, the lab is freezing cold and the weather is adding to my misery (cos I really dont like cold) and Ive got work work work to do..that means I have to get my ass out of bed early every morning. i think ive become quite a grumpy duck...

Still the early walk past the ponds and back everyday gives me the extra life.... ..=D

Apart from that.. the rain yesterday reminded me again how much Im loved by my Father in heaven.

You see.. I dont have the habit of bringing umbrellas out. And this can be quite disastrous in this kind of unpredictable weather. That plus murphy's law always seems unfairly biased against me. It was a slight drizzle when I left the house yesterday morning. It was quite plesant really, so I took that excuse and left the umbrella at home. Its a good say...7mins walk for me to the busway to catch my bus. On my journey there..the drizzle actually stopped. At the busway, I met a fellow lab mate of mine (she doesnt usually wait for the bus at this stop) and we waited for the bus thats always late together. And lo and behold..it started to rain buckets. Now..this was so not in my favor because the walk later to sch is unsheltered too..and so I said a silent prayer. By the time the bus arrived, the rain stopped and I was able to get on the bus..dry!

However, the weather being unpredictable began to pour again on the journey to school. All this touble and Im not yet in sch! =_=... This brought up the topic between my friend and I on whether I had brought an umbrella... and I had...not. But she did..and she very generously offered to share if it rains on our walk to sch. Now..I had no inkling on what my friend beileved in. But at that time I suddenly felt faith rise up in me. (its a little weird, cos the real me would think..its only rain.. why bother God). And so I decided on lean onto what journalling told me the day before..and declare freedom. This time is freedom from rain oppresion! Thus I turned to my friend and I said... "It WILL NOT rain" ...and my friend graciously offered to share her umbrella again if it does. I thanked her for it..but I said Im beileving it will not rain.

And miraculously, the rain stopped by the time I had to get off the bus. And..all the way on the walk to the lab. My friend turned to me and said.. "wow..u must have power.. the rain really stopped!" I just shrugged and said.. "nah". I reckon I need to pray for more courage. -_-. but deep inside me..what i wanted to say was " It was not me...its cos I have a Father in heaven who loves me so!"

Thank you Father, for this little blessing. Its the little blessings that truly bless me in the morning and tell me you truly care.. look at the birds by the pond.. you clothe them, feed them and multiply them. You give them shelter in the storm..how much more will you do for me. Teach me Lord, to be a blessing. =D

Scribbled at 8:32 AM

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Thursday, March 05, 2009

~* The pink marshmellow cotton candy clouds lala land*~

Its easy imagine-ing me living in a fantasy world.. where everything is pink..and soft..and yummy and where sugar overload does not exist in the dictionary..and everywhere you turn, there's a pink overenthusiastic hyperactive joyful nice person. Where the beauty of words can be taken just as they are without having to think that they weigh differently coming from differnt people.. and where they do not hide trecherous unlying meanings. Im sure some of you can imagine 'naive' me living in such a world.

I wish I did too. And then I can compose songs with chorus-es that go.. "..meet me under the 7th pink lamp post...right beside the toffee store.." (^_^) In reality, these worlds evade even my dreams. The child that realises the world isnt as pretty as the toys she plays with is jolted into harsh reality. And even though I thought I outgrew most of my 'naive' thinking early in life..there's apparently some I will continue to hold on to in this journey of life.

And I was going through a discussion yesterday on different views when 'ding' *refer to Ben's OLD post*..I chanced upone one of them. And that is..I firmly believe that everybody is good inside themselves.. ... Even if somebody might be doing an action thats unplesant to myself, I beileve its only a one time and itd be different the next time. I have a complex that enables me only to mostly see the good in everybody. And thus, you'll usually get into an argument with me if you only saw the other side of the person.

I wonder if that complex is advantageous... ... its a part of me that wholsome-ly naive. Yet I like it cos it enables me to see the world beautiful. Even if its really not. I believe in grace..I beileve that a leophard can change its spots the next day. But thats just me. And maybe with that..i could go one step closer to loving the world like Jesus does... unconditionally.

So even if its not street wise... its just.. me. =D

Scribbled at 8:43 AM

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Monday, March 02, 2009

*aiii~ home~!*

Sings: "ive got a home in Glory land that outshines the suuunnn... bombOmbom...."

Thats just Lydia goin crazy on a monday. Im thankful God gave us a home. On the outside, it wasnt the spunky new house sparkling with modern-ness that everybody dreams about, but I have discovered, and still am discovering lots of things Im loving about it..and how its truly... home. And home is not all about a sparkling new house.

Firstly, the house is cheap..and good..and relatively spacious. We didnt need furniture cos we have most of it, so God gave us an unfurnished house. BUT..we do not have white goods, and those would be a bother and would cost us alot. so..God gave us white goods!!! Isnt God amazing. =D Of all the houses we viewed and applied for over a good period of 2 over months, He gave us this with ft our criteria perfectly. That plus sch is easy to go to also! and the hospitals June, Shunzy and Yewlim and going to. For me, my route to sch has dramatically changed. Now I walk past the UQ lakes to sch everyday. That walk in itself refreshes me every morning as I trudge off to another day of hard work.

The ducks quacking..the geese doing their crazy activities.. the birds chirping..Im waiting to be rewarded by baby ducks and etc tumbling and tottering after their mom. Nature is beautiful and the God that created it is awesome.

I thank God that he created such a route for me to walk to sch everyday. As nature bustles around me it causes me to smile and laugh (often at the geese's crazy antics) and as the wind blows through the trees, much to the delight of the birds and sweaty humans....its as if God is saying ' These I made for you, and I love you , my child'

I am blessed. I am awesome-ly blessed. =D

Scribbled at 11:16 AM