Lydia's musings.. =)

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Thursday, May 08, 2008

*~ A relationship.. the stuff of fairytales?*~

Every girl dreams of her knight on a white horse that will carry her away into the horizon... where 'happily ever happens'. As we grow up and reality hits, some give up this dream.. many settle for much less. But how much really.. of this fairytale story can we still take home and like fairy dust, let it gently settle on our relationships and let us fall in love all over again... and when the bells will chime and the music slowly cresendos into a finale love song?...

A kid stubbornly holding onto this fragment of a fairytale dream I have. Maybe thats what I am. But though everything seems against.. and maybe I just might end up an old spinster, a part of me in my heart still always yearns for that little but of magic that will complete a relationship..
I dont believe in settling for less from the point of marriage..marrying someone that cant sweep you off your feet..that you're not madly in love with. I dont believe the replacement of passion and love in a relationship with familarity and convenience is a norm to be accepted. I dont believe in 'tryout' marriages..living together to see if you can tolerate each other's living habits. I dont believe a women has to close one eye and allow her man to have other women to satisfy and pacify him..to keep the marriage and family together.

I believe that a couple continues dating throughout the life you live together as husband and wife. I believe that true love waits.. and that passion should be a part of a genuine relationship. I believe that if you truely love a person.. you love him even for his faults.. so what there you cant live with? I believe marriages can be worked out between just the 2 individuals...and last of all I believe God is the centre of every marriage.. and if your marriage is blessed and approved by him, then you're truely blessed indeed. =)

So..why am I thinking such thoughts? Well, lately, events have come my way leading me to think abt it. Recently I was talking to an ex-colleague/ex-boss on msn. He got married recently. The conversation went along something like this :

HIM: Hey..hows you and your bf?
ME: BF? oh ya... i didnt tell you hor, we broke up a pretty long time ago already. =)
HIM: Oh really? Aiya.. Then I stood a chance..
ME: eh?
HIM: I had something for you last time.. ...*something something something...* Im married already.. but you would have been the one...
ME: O.o?!!! *i couldnt say anything*
HIM: But would you have liked me last time..and gone out with me?
ME: no. -_-
HIM: BYE. joking. why?
ME: Its because I only regarded you as a friend. We dont complement each other...its a relationship that wouldnt last. Arent friendships better? Its friendships that really lasts. Relationships die off. A relationship is not a game to me.
HIM: I dont mind short relationships.. you know, where u both can hold hands..
ME: I cant do those. Every relationship I go through takes a bit of me. Its how I am.. =P
*Disclaimer..i cant remember word for word.. but this is the gist of the convo.*

My friend is happy with his wife now. Im happy for him. =) But thats how it is... do we throw ourselves easily into a relationship satisfied just by holding hands with the people we like at the moment? Are we ok with settling for less, believing the 'prince' doesnt exisit anwyay? I believe with all my heart that he does. and that he doesnt have to be perfect. But Id love him anyway, just as he is...in his inperfections.. and in what he may not be able to give me.. His inperfections will pale so small against what I see in him..what I see in that heart, and know that truely, this is the one for me.

So I will wait.. in front of the tree stump by the windy paths and wait for you to come my way. You who will slay my dragons who will shield me from fiery darts. You who will come someday and colour my world with your presence.

So...wait. All ye other maidens of the world. Of whom your prince has not yet come. Wait and tary. For surely God will provide... for He has seen our hearts and know what we truely need.. for He is who He is.. =)

Scribbled at 9:10 PM