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Friday, May 30, 2008

*...Life signals...*

~the cold is giving me a brain freeze.. the heater is dehydrating me from the surface area of my body.. =_=~

We have all grown up in the company of people. Well, maybe for Singapore, we dont have that much of a choice anyway, cos its SO small. To put it in a chemistry context, we're just like tiny water molecules ..vibrating vigourously... moving so fast.... constantly knocking into other equally 'stressed out and crazy' molecules. Conversations take place everyday...and sometimes we find it such a bother... "oh why must I keep thinking of things to say to keep the conversations moving"...
It might be for a job.. it might be a social thing. But often, in the overdose of 'company' we feel absolutely tired out.

... sometimes we might even ask the question.." Why do I have to talk to people anyway?"
...people are complex, they're not like me.. they take too much effort to get to know.. im an introvert..I pretty much like to keep to myself.

I think... subconsciously, I have been pondering upon these things. And recently, as i was daydreaming on the bus *to the city..i think* I experienced a half DING moment. [with reference to Benji's blog] Labelled an extrovert, Im almost expected to be easy with any kind of person. Thats true to a certain extent, I can start conversations.. BUT not necessarily with any kind of person..on the conturary... Im more a passive person...I prefer to listen. SO while..I MAY BE able to thicken my skin..plaster a smile and strike up an animated convo with a random person, it takes that bit of me.and tires me out..cos.... deep inside, Im actually scared. Scared of what the world might throw at me.. scared...perhaps of...rejection.

But if you stop and think... what is life without anybody around to talk to.. to fellowship with.. to share life with? All of us are so different in so many ways.. some of us are introverts..hermits in our own world. But deep inside, we've all been built with a very basic yet essential mechanism. The need for LOVE and FELLOWSHIP. We cannot survive without fellowship.. without interaction and love. Babies,provided with full nutrition, literally wither and die without affection(human touch) Think abt it. God made us to be in fellowship with Him. (Genesis 1-2). This inborn need is also reflected in our T cells. Our very important class of immune cells in the body. T cells are made in the thymus and undergo a selection process. The cells the dont have a basic slight interaction with another specific class of immune cells, the dendritic cells, bascially dont recieve a survival signal and dies off.

True fellowship and socialising is something we cant run away from.. and it hit me thats its also something we cant do without! Im glad God made you... for me... for us! =D So Id treasure fellowship.. ... ... and thank God for ingraining something so beautiful into our system. =)

Haha... wacky fellowship =) Yewlim, JuneBayyyy and Benji. =)

What is your life signal today? Will you speak life into a passing 'molecule'.. giving the essential survival signal so that the molecule will go on and live its life to the fullest? Or would you shrug off contact ... living within the walls you built up over the years... freezing into an ice cube..... .. ..?

Scribbled at 11:27 AM