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Sunday, April 09, 2006

tHe cRoSs

The production's around the corner! Hear ye...hear ye! Our annunal easter cantata. Scrap the heavy drama this year, we're going into heavy song and dance. I think i outdid myself this year with so many cheography...i was sOoO stressed..i was sufferig for mental block for awhile..not to mention exhaustive-ness. I'm still tired...more so since we are doing full runs..and dance after dance is no small joke...my stamina is going down the hill. hehe. But the songs are fantastic..and so's the choir. God...u know..sacrificing my time and energy to shout Your name from the hilltop is the least I can do...for You. Jesus u died on the Cross..u suffered for my gain. The weight of the cross is not the weight of the tree..it's the weight of my sins. You saw me as man...weak as I am...and u paid the price.

Lord, I love You....not because I am wise...but because You first loved me..

Anyways...production titled Easter Cantata "The Cross" is on the 14th and 15th of April. That's Good Friday and the day after. It starts at 7.30pm sharp on either day and entry is by tickets...and tickets are FrEe..hehe. those who wana go...call moi! hehe...see me dance..and maybe you'll be treated to a sight of me tumbling off the stage..O.o ha ha. But it's gonna be gOods...u dun wanna miss it! hehe

hMm..*glooms* I'm on my last week of attachment at CGH. weird..i dun wanna leave. That doesnt sound like a normal and expected response from one who's working for no pay, heh. But I cant seem to help it..i got stuck to the microbiology lab..>.< as i discovered after my first week there. It took alot outta me to not walk in there all the time when i was on rotation somewhere else. I was hooked...and like the saying goes..'hook, line and sinker'. Weird..i never liked the smell of bacteria before..nor their morphology..most of them looked the same to me---ugly. But..now there look nice and smell interesting...in a way that i dont not like their smell. wow...revival..O.o

I cant imagine life as it was once again...back to the cycle of school...and microbiology-less. until after my diploma. I managed to get my psychology elective module. ah..psychology..wad i had wanted to study initially..until God put me in the microbio lab. Ah well God, I thank you for the chance to let me try out psychology too. You are gracious...But i guess I'm so addicted to microbio...and the annoying thing is that my textbook is so bigg..and cheem..i dunno where to start. so much for self studying. World biggest goondo. That plus..my memory is so serious lacking...evrything I try to read and remember has to be done several times over or it'll just leak out like my head's a seive.

sigh...i hope i wont cry...not in front of them anyway...darn. mommie always says I get too emotionally attached and that I'm too sentimental. Am I? sigh... If only I can do my FYP on microbiology..then again..i havent got any good ideas on what to do...Yet. God..u got me this far...dont leave me hanging... .. ...

*Once again I look upon the cross where u died...I'm humbled by Your mercy and I'm broken inside*

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