Lydia's musings.. =)

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Saturday, October 02, 2004

It's Saturday already, i danno why, but for me, I feel that time flies so fast..or rather...times doesn hav a time at all...he's so selfish..he moves so fast just when i dun wan him too, but moves slow in things i wan him too...hmm..(maybe I'm the selfish 1..shh...)

Just sitting at the window watching the sun go down, day after day..i feel such a ache..another day has gone past...but i still dun feel productive enough.... and i always end up asking God.." What can I do for you?" the ans would be "save my ppl"(at least that's wads been laying down on my conciousence) so i'll always say" Guide my words, Lord"... haha..but more recently, I hav alwats been praying..."hElP mE iN mY tEsTs!!! I'm dRownInG!!!!" sobsob...yeayea.. But he hasn't let me down...I did fail once..but duh..it's my fault..last minute work..esp in chem(argh) wun help.haha...

Sara's coming back soon..yea. can do a great countdown. You know dear..I;ve been missing you much these days..thou distance and time does i's best to seperate us..it fails miserbly in taking alway the place you'll always own in my heart..( that goes for rach too (^_^) ) i feel so special..i hav two best frens. greedy ne?..haha

hmm..sara...thou it's been months..but you know..everytime I'm alone..and i feel so alone or if i just wanna go out and CHILL...i'll think of you...thou, it hasn been a habit of goin out wif you lately (for obvious reasons) I'm havin sara withdrawal symtoms that has no intention relief anytime soon..haha. You know..so many times...i'm doin something and like " hey..i know how sara would get about doin this" and when i meet difficult situations...I somehow know crazy things you'll do..or rather, if you were arounf and we'll do together..and it makes me laugh..haha. when I'm stuck with a maths question..i just know that way you'll teach me..hmm.ya. I'm not used to askin others for help...cos i've always bugged you and rach... it's fun..and i get my ans..haha.i'll kip it that way..(grinz*)
And then..at times i wanna draw anime..i'll think of how we'll plop on the floor and our home with pillows supporting your *fat* sotmach and draw away..ya.. wif lots of snakcs in between..and ya. you're cute hairstyle..that we'll do together when we go shoppin and embarass rach..haha..

And I can't wait till u get back again..i'll definatly pivk u at the airport...hu cares wad tijme u come in..and i'm sure rach will too..haha OiNk...your piggy and phish...come back fast fast k?..hehe and dun stress abt your uni thingy..haha..i know they're like out to infuriate ppl..haha...relax..haha. they dun wan u..their loss..haha when u come back...go dance class wif me..hehe..so fun...den we'll go in two pony tails k? and look like twins again... ... ... ...

So there goes...time keep passing me by...i hope it doesnt take me for a fool...maybe it does.. but i guess it's just doin it's job.. Thank you time..i do appreciate you.. but in so many situations..i just need more time..you're meant to be cherished..and i hope that one day i'll learn to unleash your full potential..

For now..." Dear God... Bless my dear, dear friends all over the world...you hold the world in the palm of you hands..nothin is too difficult for you...and in your time, we know that all things work togethr for good. teach me Lord, to be patient and to walk in your ways..your ways are not necessary my ways..and let me learn Lord, and protect the things I hold dear in my life. Because of you..I can overcome all with joy and confidence.. Thank you for your peace and refuge... Amen"

Scribbled at 10:26 PM