Lydia's musings.. =)

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Saturday, August 28, 2004

haha...lAtE at night when all the world is sleepin..haha...i should say..gOod mOrNiNg SiNgaPoRe!!!haha.got home late. came back from church. One word. FaNtAsTiC. Great speaker. rev dr kameel..(is that how u spell?) haha. He was the camp speaker this year too. specialises in the EnD tImes. coolz rite.haha. Aniwae. yea. i did a wonderful tep of faith today, Alison n Sara would be really proud of me.yea..i got the baptism of the Holy Spirit! YipPie! now I can speak in tongues!yay...I was sOoO happie...i danno wad to say, adn how to describe the feeling...it is really true? Am i just blabbering? What to say..?
I really dun feel a sudden specialness. just a jumping tongue..now i din expect that, so i dun know what to say..realli. so now..i'm really happie..i got it..i got the baptism of the Holy Spirit...i just wanna praise God...

It'll be so cool to praise God in a new tongue..so i'm multi-lingual now ya..?hmm..Sara dear, does that count..?haha. It does..it does..haha. Must really thank Shu Zhen too..lotsy n lotsy..cos she stayed through to see me thou my lOng journey..now got serious hand aches...thans ah, gravity.haha.

k la..it's kinda late already. or if you wanna put it in another way..early in the morning.ya.shld be getting to bed. yAwnz. tomorrwo got a continued sermon..yeah! haha..i'll lte u know more..but it's really gonna be quite alot.haha. save it for sara n rach.hee. hmm..hope he'll talk more on Russia tomorrow..i'm curious. yep. see ya guyz. i hope my mom gets a great prophesy tomorrow.hee. Bottom line: Jesus rocks my world!!! Know the Truth n the Truth will set you free! and like fur sham would say..Yessar!haha...-_-..

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Wednesday, August 25, 2004

ahh...WednEsdAY! welcome middle of the week! just went through a horrendous test today.. that I did..n ya. btw, this color is to honor the 'lil yellow phish' also known as rachel..haha. ya..talkin abt that dIsgUsTiNg test..haa.it was biophysics..physics in a bio concept kinda wayy. no fun as u can guess.haha. Then again who said physics ever was.
I've hardly been more confused.. but it's fine cos i'm always almost confused...right..hehe.

It's been a lonely week..LONELY. I'm currently goin thru my friendster. yepp. figuring out hu is hu sometimes. Oroz.. ..abt loneliness..it's a lousy feeling. miss my bear...miss my phish..my frog..my cheesecake...everybody close to my heart..ya..n rachel mummy(big rach)hehe. it's like comin to 3 months since sch started..and i still feel vulnerable in sch life. danno y...everything's changing...i feel stuck..sOmEwHerE..n i just wanna concentrate in doin well for my tests. yet, i still tend to fail myself time n again...darn some really qian bian pErsOn in my class...so annoying, i danno wad to say.

I miss Ms lee too..the so wonderful, patient person behind my miraculous O level results..after the grace of God. She really has the patience of a mother hen! hehe. love her for that...cos i'm really quite blur in studies..ya phish?..haha. Depended on her so last year..on understading...STUFF. wanna see her again...wonder if she'll mind if i bug her.hehe.*evil*

Well, teachers' day a week later...exactly. sighh..dun get to go back to Anglican High wif phish. can see "hiroshima potato" again...he's realli wuite nice to me..for some odd reason..haha. wanna go back much. see my teachers...shock them wif my hair. ya, cheap thrill.haha. but i like it so there. *sticks tongue out*

Tomorrow start sch at 8 again...hmm..shld i ask Bo Mao to go wif me..?in the train..?hmm. maybe..haha. sian liaoz...haha. ya..one more thing. Gambette ppl! KickiNg sOtOnG is the latest craze!! lol...love you all...(dun any-o-how steal my love..hehe...to those i give..i give generously...to those i din confess to..hehe...catch a fallkin star babe..dude!) hehe...n God Bless ya'll all. he rocks my world n always will..he's my buFfEr in life..(kips me constant in life..) ya? hee.Dear God..thank you for forgiving my iniquities again n again..den think i;m so deserving..but you're wonderful..take control of my life..hold my in th palm of your hand..never let me go... teach me to trust you in everything...n in everything i give you praise n thanksgoving. teach me know that you have the best plan for me later in life, n matter what i'm goin through now... i'm strong enough to make it through wif you. Bless my friends..the ones i love. Thank you God...I love you, and i thank you that i'm faithfully n wonderfully made. Amen!

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Monday, August 23, 2004

BowlIng tOdAy!!! hehe..that's Michelle..Me n Fursham....

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Sunday, August 22, 2004

it's a suNdAy..the first day of the week..yay.Another week is here..perhaps i'll be better this week *notice halos* But I'm not looking forward to the usual bustle on tests and homework this week. argh. sp Am I just slow or am I just ReAlLy slow n BLUR..duhz...

Sunday's Alison's birthday..this comin 1..she's 21!! way to go ali!!haha. Only prob ish that her party's theme's BoLlyWoOd..bollywood!!...oh dear..oh dear..any idea wad i should wear?..haha. and i tot Jon's aqaurium theme was badd unuff. thrust Alison.haha. Couple of them's also doin a dance for her party..EnO's spearheading it..i'm not dancing..danno y. guess i know when I'm not wanted..haha. nvm -_-..*sobs* haha. can't wait to be 21 too...can hav fun theme plus sleepover!haha and pInk..pInk pInk..*kisses the air...*haha

Wanna be happiE this week! yahoo...stop thinking abt *zhor dang* 'time of the month'...-_-..dun like it lots..truely.haha. MusT lose eight tOo..say, how to get abt doin that..??!! arGh.haha. nvm.hApPie shahlalalala... i wanna dance..in the rain..in the moonlight.. tomorrow got cca dance again. Oh ya..hmm...really quite fun. but if only froggie..cheesecake n phish was wif me ( i was thinking last week) den we can rock the place man! it's still quite lonely dere...sighz. can bully froggie...to hear her croak.haha. den can sHaKe our bOn bOns!.haha. tIoNG...

K..i shoudnt stray from hmk too lOng i guess..lousy music in blog not working...sighz!!! but got biophysics test this week..can't seem to get it right..not logical at all.haha. but never hav been a fan of hpysics aniwae..gambette to meself!..hehe. I love u guys ya..lotsy n lotsy..to my darlin bEaR toOo.. ...CheErz!!!

Scribbled at 11:57 AM

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Thursday, August 19, 2004

I'm..bAcK! haha. hectic week for moi..got anatomy n physiology test today...hope i pass...really. but i really tRiEd to study..now i really miss humaities..:-( was talking to long on msn...haha. hand suan lioaz.

did u all watch s'pore idol?..man..i can't believe the quality of the judges singapore provides.* hides my head in shame* and poor Dwayne. he deserved so much more than that..u know what?..i shall not comment more. go watch the show yourselves...but really, the judges actions never afiled to render me speechless this time... -_-...nthin to say.

I wonder on the quality of the potential S'pore idol now, from the left over..top 30. I see potentials being booted out...singers..just cos they can rem the lyrics.(could be a song they liked..) put in...and they are kinda off-key. so i really danno. sigh. hope the s'pore isnt a let down.still i give all credit for goin thru so much. You rock man!! haha..and hu takes it seriously. it takes lots of time n effort.. ..gambette! hehe.

Got sch tomorrow...den get to go out wif rach n "xiao bu dian" Fiona. hehe. for ice cream! yay. rocks...meanwhile..i tired again. think i ate too much. went for high-tea at hotel phoenix la. from 3.30 to 5.30..din hav dinner..till now still full.haha. ahh..the effects of greediness...(and i wanted to lose weight) *sobz* Dear God...pity me....pls excite my Endocrine system...the metobolic part..den dun hafta spend on slimming.hehe.

slept jus now..wanna sleep again.yay..and I WILL..haha. so take care darlings! see ya again! *muackz*

Scribbled at 10:19 PM

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Sunday, August 15, 2004

found this quot. love it..ne?

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Saturday, August 14, 2004

ManZai ThrEe!!!

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Friday, August 13, 2004

Love is a complicated affair... took it awhile to sink in. Everyone hopes to be loved in this cold cold world. We all want a partner to go thru life difficulties with us and to pull us out of troubled waters. Guess i'm no different. I always envy couples on the train..cuddling..enjoying the trip. Goin to and from sch together. while i remain huddled alone on one end wondering when it will finally reach Simei.(then i can get home to my bed..) Like all girls, i do notice boys..sometimes. We have many guy friends around us, when we get too lonely somethimes, we tend to hope that they like us. However, when we know certain guys like us, we dont like it. Then they like someone else, we get jealous. ever felt that wayy before..? It's a nice feeling to know that you are liked. But it's scary toO..

I'm no stranger to this feeling I guess. I see couples all around me (literally). I'm alone...lonely, wanna be liked. So you think, does anybody actually like me around? But if somebody actually seems to like me...i shirk away. felt like that before? How come we're so weird. I like close guy friends, but i dont like it when they overstep the border. So at least i'm learning, I think. This time...when i find myself hoping a certain someone would like me...I ask myself. " Will I like him even if he does?!!' haha. good question. cos 99.5% of the time, I won't. It is just me, or are you the same?..hmm.

And how much reality is there in the fact " LoviNg sOmeoNe fOr lIfe"? This is of cos expected in married couples. But what if you really love someone but you dun get to be together at the end..? Will you be able to love another? True, always trust God for your life partner. then "mUltIply" (hahaz) but wad if you really meet your 'life partner' but cant love him as much as he deserves to be loved...den..hOw? sighz.. Y izzit alwayz alike that.. ... ....

okie..shall keep that off my mind for a while..lala. aniwae...have to tell mIsunE ChaN..thanx for the lEttEr!!!! yay. koolz. got it last night. love it..love the pInk paper..love that you're writin letters in boring classes *evil grinz* and love your lovely handwriting! haha. I'll write back sOon..pRomIse! can't wait for all you ppl to get back hOme... miSs my dArliNgs.. hee...

love ya..oInk..

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Monday, August 09, 2004

YozZie! HaPpiE BiRthdAy SinGapoRE !!!
Just done with watching the parade.. on TV. They sang my fav song this year *HomE* YipPiE!..that song has always made me emotional..for some reason. Bring this song with you when you are overseas ..it does wonders esp when you're alone and scared. Ahh..thinkin of my NZ trip in sec 2..ya rach? Kowaii ne..

Tomorrow..it's Tuesday..I start sch aGaIn..luvky 'un-poly' students..they get xtra hols..i also wan..actually, I'll rather hav wed off.. *sighz* Tomorrow my darling friend is leaving for aust aGaIn..My tower of support..my friend for eternity...I dun like friends leaving me. It makes me feel kinda vulnerable and exposed..don't you think so..? I long for the special kind of love you find only in friends. :-) Can't send my fren off..it's a midnight flight.. I'm so gonna cRy myself 2 sleep *sobz**sobz**sobz*

There seems to be so many things i dun wanna do this year..i dun wanna go for my piano exams..i dun wanna take my poly exams..i dun wanna be aLl AloNe.. ya. do know that God is always with me. puts a nice perspective on 'ThaNk God!' But i still constantly feel ever so lonely in bed at night...wonder why..?

Feel so down nowadays..I hOpE it's not PMS ne?..time goes past so fast nowadays, i feel reluctant to move. Ya, so maybe it's pms..hope it goes past soon. I abhore pms..hope it's not a genetic problem.haha.

K la...sian liaoz... wanna be happie...but how..nvm, i'll try my best! promise! ne?.. One more thing..*lOvE huRts*
LovE ya alwayz!..2 my bear.. ..

pic of me and my sis...LynEttE..lala..

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Saturday, August 07, 2004

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AoShi??!!..cOoLZ. ... (^-^) wonder wHiCh Aoshi thou...the one from Rurouni Kenshi would be coolz...u ppl go take tOo..Thanx..GupPiE..for the So iNtEresTinG link.haha..OinK

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Thursday, August 05, 2004

oLaY! i'm estastic today...cos i managed to survive thru a hOrRoR show The ViLlAGE!!! ahh! haha..the sense of accomplishment is sOo fullfilling. hmm..actually, ah, its not that scary la..more of stress to my pOor lil brain cells..cos i scared got ghost pop out.haha. not too bad..u could try it..*sticks out tongue* still i'm not likely to go see a rEaL horror show..nono..
haha...ok la..been chatting with my Sara daling..now tired..wanna sleep..haha..just haD to say that i GoT thru the show! haha...oInk..
*dIe pLg*
(wad jasmine calls moi.. ..)

Scribbled at 9:43 PM

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Tuesday, August 03, 2004

ItcHy dayz.. darn, it was yesterday. I for some reson became a feast for the mosquitos..first time sia...i counted abt 10 mosquito bites on my right leg. bian tai mosquito. wonder how i got bitten too..i was wearing long pants and in sch most of then day..uNfAir..Ya, and monday's chem test couldn't gte much worse. haha. i dun even wanna think abt it..lala

k la, i know should be more happie..riteE?..haa.ok lets go to the happie bits den..i finally at loOng last found the song i've been looking for: first love by Utada Hikaru. Thanx Jia Zhao!..yay..nice song..never heard of the singer.heez. Not my fault right? my frens would testify to the fact that i'm known for blurness.hehe. But it's alright..just know the impt stuff can liao.Thou it's not workin out in chem..i cringe to think abt physics toO..blehz

But I can say settling well down into life routine now..sch..hmk..sleep...sch hmk sleep...no life aGaIn..and i'm still consistantly putting on weight. oh man -_-lll...
Wads a fAt^PlG to dOo..oh ya...gals..u know what..I had a fren sittin behind me callin someone a fat pig (take note it was meant as an insult), the other day..and i so though he was callin me...ah wel..too many names..i got mixed up.haha. he got an ultra shock thou..haha. but HEY..pLgs are cute! esp tHiS 1. sp hMph..lousy taste in bad names. haha ( if you read this dun get insukted k?) haha...

Got another dance coming up in church pretty soon..eNo's callin for dance prac again..yay. Oh ya..now SP also got hip hop class..sara..you'll love that..haha. see la. when i got time, attend den teach u k? hee. One of my senior teachin..it's a guy...as flexi as caleb lorz. yay.

Church..ya. church rox..God rulez. my philosphy n driving force in life. Cos i believe in tRutH..it sets me fRee..gives me a purpose in life. that's y Chruch rox + God rulez = Jesus lives! yay. haha...

k la...*pout* tomorrow got music exam...KowAiI...so musn't type too much..later hand tired..cannot play...so you ppl take care k? i'll update on the dreaded exam tomorrow...wahHh..love ya..

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